Alter ego of an Ethiopian Immigrant!!!
Wednesday, August 7, 2019
Wednesday, June 7, 2017
The best way to get the love we want is to ask for it.
The best way to get the love we want is to ask for it, yet, this process of opening up is one of vulnerability and therefore scary, it is also the very experience that allows us to develop an exquisite #closeness with the people we love. I get it, it is catch 22!
If we don't ask, the chance of getting what we want is close to zero. They are not mind readers. So, in order to receive love, we have to ask for it. And we need to communicate what we please and displease us. We need to know what love consists of. Just holding a vague hope that we would get loved is not enough. Our experiencing of love is very specific. If we share what kind of expression of #love we need to feel loved, then our loved ones will be able to provide us with the kind of love that speaks to us.
So, today, try to find out what we mean when we tell our #beloved 'I need your love.' Do we want them to like us, to' love' us, think we are great, to find us better than others, to find us cute, to say we are lovely, to say we are wise, do we want them to think we are sexy, do we want them think that we are young and/or mature, do we want them to say we are #beautiful, do we want them to give us their approval, do we want them to appreciate us, to hold us, to express their #affection in a physical way, do we want them to search for us, do we want them to tell us we are wonderful, do we want them to think we are #sensual, #witty, #articulate strong, #vulnerable, funny, do we want them to be consistent,# loyal, #trustworthy, keep their words, patience, do we want them to have an impact in our lives, do we want them to give up a bad habit for us, do we want them to encourage us one way or the other, do we want them to share their daily lives with us, etc
Once they tell us what they want us to do for them to make them feel loved, we need to comply. Every #relationship requires a certain amount of re-configuring to conform to or complement the needs, desires, and circumstances of the person to whom we are related. We might not like to do this and we might become resentful when we are forced to do it, the truth is, if we want to stay in that relationship, we have to do it. #Compromising is if we realize that the very fact of setting aside our preferences and doing the thing he or she wants is one of the most important ways of loving one another. So indulge one another, this is not a losing ground; it is loving.
Nothing in life is as important as the love you need, feel, give, and receive. No accomplishment can ever match it. No tragedies ever displace it; no adventure however grand or #captivating will ever equal its immense power in our lives. Love is bigger than sorrow and longer than time. Love is larger than life. So, don't let insecurity or pride stop you from expressing it or from asking for it.
Let us all love and be loved.
Wednesday, May 31, 2017
For all my angels!!!
Today, I was ready to talk. I was pissed. I was really pissed. I resent my friend for every miserable thought I have today, I was furious that he would subject me to the unprotected experience of my own feelings. I was glad that he realized that today was not the time to get uppity about clean #boundaries and the importance of owning our own feelings. He listened. This time, He listened without interrupting; trying only to let me know that he loves me. I can see that he was in pain. I can see all he wanted to do for me today was to be there for me. I was furious with him and he was not giving himself permission to defend himself. And I could see that he was hurting and that stopped me on my track.
I realized there are not too many people who would do what he was doing for me at that moment, I don't even know if I would be able to do it if I was in his place. That was when we reached out and held each other. Both of us were hurting, for different reasons, yet, we understood each other's hurt and all we wanted was to reach out and comfort the other.
I have always known that God has blessed with wonderful friends but sometimes I think I take them for granted. Today, I want to share with you what make my friends the most amazing people in the world. I remember sometimes ago reading something about friendship which says 'families are a gift from God; friends are a gift you give yourself.' I don't agree with that. Only God can put these amazing people in our lives.
I have learned that friendship, like a diamond, is hard and durable, yet if handled carelessly, can break into worthless pieces. Friendship must be cared for and nourished if it is to remain whole. Care and nourishment may take many forms, like texting, emailing, calling, visiting or/and speaking from one's heart and telling the other of the love that they inspire within us.
I have learned that friendship/relationships involve risk and it is after taking a risk and finding out that no harm will come that a deeper friendship grows. It involves work. Sometimes, it brings with it challenges and compromises, and it sometimes brings tears, but with the desire to carry out one's commitment with compassion and persistence, it is work worth doing, and deeper friendship and love is the reward. And I think the most valuable lesson I have learned is that love cannot go unexpressed. Signs of #love and #care must be demonstrated and words of love must be spoken if the #friendship is to continuously flow with vim and vigor.
I have been blessed with few close friends. These are the people (men and women) who reminds me every day why I am lucky to be alive, they are the ones who teach me about love. They give me acceptance, kindness, and grace that compel me to better myself. They stimulate my mind and my passion for life. They let me love them the way I want to and welcome all that I give them. They tirelessly show their love and enthusiasm for me. I have told them of my many #weaknesses and trespasses, and they have not retreated from me. I have revealed to them my fears, and they have comforted me. I don't know how I got lucky but I know I am.
I feel safe with them. They always see the best in me. They never asked me to prove myself to them. They take time with me. Even when they are upset with me, they are kind. They never attempt to #control me. Their #affection is soothing to me. When I am #irritable, they are forgiving. When I reach for them, they come closer. They have shown me grace in every turn. They have helped me to better understand myself. They have never tried to change who I am. They have enriched my life in ways I never imagined. They are careful with my tender spirit.
I thank God for them. For the person, I went off on today (you know who you are) I want to say thank you for loving me, even when I was being unreasonable and please #forgive me. For the rest of my friends, I want you to know how much I love and appreciate you, even, when I am not expressing it. I hope you know what each of you means to me. YOU ARE MY ANGELS!!!
Sunday, May 21, 2017
The Four Wives. Author Unkonwn
There was a rich merchant who had 4 wives. He loved the 4th wife the most and adorned her with rich robes and treated her to delicacies. He took great care of her and gave her nothing but the best.
He also loved the 3rd wife very much. He's very proud of her and always wanted to show off her to his friends. However, the merchant is always in great fear that she might run away with some other men.
He too loved his 2nd wife. She is a very considerate person, always patient and in fact is the merchant's confidante. Whenever the merchant faced some problems, he always turned to his 2nd wife and she would always help him out and tide him through difficult times.
Now, the merchant's 1st wife is a very loyal partner and has made great contributions in maintaining his wealth and business as well as taking care of the household. However, the merchant did not love the first wife and although she loved him deeply, he hardly took notice of her.
One day, the merchant fell ill. Before long, he knew that he was going to die soon. He thought of his luxurious life and told himself, "Now I have 4 wives with me. But when I die, I'll be alone. How lonely I'll be!"
Thus, he asked the 4th wife, "I loved you most, endowed you with the finest clothing and showered great care over you. Now that I'm dying, will you follow me and keep me company?" "No way!" replied the 4th wife and she walked away without another word.
The answer cut like a sharp knife right into the merchant's heart. The sad merchant then asked the 3rd wife, "I have loved you so much for all my life. Now that I'm dying, will you follow me and keep me company?" "No!" replied the 3rd wife. "Life is so good over here! I'm going to remarry when you die!" The merchant's heart sank and turned cold.
He then asked the 2nd wife, "I always turned to you for help and you've always helped me out. Now I need your help again. When I die, will you follow me and keep me company?" "I'm sorry, I can't help you out this time!" replied the 2nd wife. "At the very most, I can only send you to your grave." The answer came like a bolt of thunder and the merchant was devastated.
Then a voice called out: "I'll live with you. I'll follow you no matter where you go." The merchant looked up and there was his first wife. She was so skinny, almost like she suffered from malnutrition. Greatly grieved, the merchant said, "I should have taken much better care of you while I could have !"
Actually, we all have 4 wives in our lives
a. The 4th wife is our body. No matter how much time and effort we lavish in making it look good, it'll leave us when we die.
b. Our 3rd wife? Our possessions, status, and wealth. When we die, they all go to others.
c. The 2nd wife is our family and friends. No matter how close they had been there for us when we're alive, the furthest they can stay by us is up to the grave.
d. The 1st wife is, in fact, our soul, often neglected in our pursuit of material, wealth and sensual pleasure.
Guess what? It is actually the only thing that follows us wherever we go. Perhaps it's a good idea to cultivate and strengthen it now rather than to wait until we're on our deathbed to lament
Tuesday, September 27, 2016
There is an ancient Sufi story:
A man was very much burdened by his suffering. He used to pray every day to God, “Why me? Everybody seems to be so happy, why am only I in such suffering?” One day, out of great desperation, he prayed to God, “You can give me anybody else’s suffering and I am ready to accept it. But take mine, I cannot bear it anymore.”
That night he had a beautiful dream verÿ beautiful and very revealing. He had a dream that night that God appeared in the sky and he said to everybody, “Bring all your sufferings into the temple.” Everybody was tired of his suffering – in fact everybody has prayed some time or other, “I am ready to accept anybody else’s suffering, but take mine away; this is too much, it is unbearable.”
So everybody gathered his own sufferings into bags, and they reached the temple, and they were looking very happy; the day has come, their prayer has been heard. And this man also rushed to the temple.
And then God said, “Put your bags by the walls.” All the bags were put by the walls, and then God declared: “Now you can choose. Anybody can take any bag.”
And the most surprising thing was this: that this man who had been praying always, rushed towards his bag before anybody else could choose it! But he was in for a surprise, because everybody rushed to his own bag, and everybody was happy to choose it again. What was the matter? For the first time, everybody had seen others’ miseries, others’ sufferings – their bags were as big, or even bigger!
And the second problem was, one had become accustomed to one’s own sufferings. Now to choose somebody else’s – who knows what kind of sufferings will be inside the bag? Why bother? At least you are familiar with your own sufferings, and you have become accustomed to them, and they are tolerable. For so many years you have tolerated them – why choose the unknown?
And everybody went home happy. Nothing had changed, they were bringing the same suffering back, but everybody was happy and smiling and joyous that he could get his own bag back.
In the morning he prayed to God and he said, “Thank you for the dream; I will never ask again. Whatsoever you have given me is good for me, must be good for me; that’s why you have given it to me.”
Thursday, August 6, 2015
Funny And Embarrassing Moments In Court Houses Through Out The Nation.
The following quotations are taken from official court records across the nation, showing how funny and embarrassing it is that recorders operate at all times in courts of law, so that even the slightest inadvertence is preserved for posterity.
- Lawyer: "Was that the same nose you broke as a child?"
- Witness: "I only have one, you know."
- Lawyer: "Now, Mrs. Johnson, how was your first marriage terminated?"
- Witness: "By death."
- Lawyer: "And by whose death was it terminated?"
- Accused, Defending His Own Case: "Did you get a good look at my face when I took your purse?"
- Lawyer: "What is your date of birth?"
- Witness: "July 15th."
- Lawyer: "What year?"
- Witness: "Every year."
- Lawyer: "Can you tell us what was stolen from your house?"
- Witness: "There was a rifle that belonged to my father that was stolen from the hall closet."
- Lawyer: "Can you identify the rifle?"
- Witness: "Yes. There was something written on the side of it."
- Lawyer: "And what did the writing say?"
- Witness: "'Winchester'!"
- Lawyer: "What gear were you in at the moment of the impact?"
- Witness: "Gucci sweats and Reeboks."
- Lawyer: "Can you describe what the person who attacked you looked like?"
- Witness: "No. He was wearing a mask."
- Lawyer: "What was he wearing under the mask?"
- Witness: "Er...his face."
- Lawyer: "This myasthenia gravis -- does it affect your memory at all?"
- Witness: "Yes."
- Lawyer: "And in what ways does it affect your memory?"
- Witness: "I forget."
- Lawyer: "You forget. Can you give us an example of something that you've forgotten?"
- Lawyer: "How old is your son, the one living with you?"
- Witness: "Thirty-eight or thirty-five, I can't remember which."
- Lawyer: "How long has he lived with you?"
- Witness: "Forty-five years."
- Lawyer: "What was the first thing your husband said to you when he woke that morning?"
- Witness: "He said, 'Where am I, Cathy?'"
- Lawyer: "And why did that upset you?"
- Witness: "My name is Susan."
- Lawyer: "Sir, what is your IQ?"
- Witness: "Well, I can see pretty well, I think."
- Lawyer: "Did you blow your horn or anything?"
- Witness: "After the accident?"
- Lawyer: "Before the accident."
- Witness: "Sure, I played for ten years. I even went to school for it."
- Lawyer: "Trooper, when you stopped the defendant, were your red and blue lights flashing?"
- Witness: "Yes."
- Lawyer: "Did the defendant say anything when she got out of her car?"
- Witness: "Yes, sir."
- Lawyer: "What did she say?"
- Witness: "'What disco am I at?'"
- Lawyer: "Doctor, before you performed the autopsy, did you check for a pulse?"
- Witness: "No."
- Lawyer: "Did you check for blood pressure?"
- Witness: "No."
- Lawyer: "Did you check for breathing?"
- Witness: "No."
- Lawyer: "So, then it is possible that the patient was alive when you began the autopsy?"
- Witness: "No."
- Lawyer: "How can you be so sure, Doctor?"
- Witness: "Because his brain was sitting on my desk in a jar."
- Lawyer: "But could the patient have still been alive nevertheless?"
- Witness: "Yes, it is possible that he could have been alive and practicing law somewhere."
- Lawyer: "How far apart were the vehicles at the time of the collision?"
- Lawyer: "And you check your radar unit frequently?"
- Officer: "Yes, I do."
- Lawyer: "And was your radar unit functioning correctly at the time you had the plaintiff on radar?"
- Officer: "Yes, it was malfunctioning correctly."
- Lawyer: "What happened then?"
- Witness: "He told me, he says, 'I have to kill you because you can identify me.'"
- Lawyer: "Did he kill you?"
- Witness: "No."
- Lawyer: "Now sir, I'm sure you are an intelligent and honest man--"
- Witness: "Thank you. If I weren't under oath, I'd return the compliment."
- Lawyer: "You were there until the time you left, is that true?"
- Lawyer: "So you were gone until you returned?"
- Lawyer: "The youngest son, the 20 year old, how old is he?"
- Lawyer: "Were you alone or by yourself?"
- Lawyer: "How long have you been a French Canadian?"
- Witness: "He was about medium height and had a beard."
- Lawyer: "Was this a male or a female?"
- Lawyer: "Mr. Slatery, you went on a rather elaborate honeymoon, didn't you?"
- Witness: "I went to Europe, sir."
- Lawyer: "And you took your new wife?"
- Lawyer: "I show you Exhibit 3 and ask you if you recognize that picture."
- Witness: "That's me."
- Lawyer: "Were you present when that picture was taken?"
- Lawyer: "Were you present in court this morning when you were sworn in?"
- Lawyer: "Do you know how far pregnant you are now?"
- Witness: "I'll be three months on November 8."
- Lawyer: "Apparently, then, the date of conception was August 8?"
- Witness: "Yes."
- Lawyer: "What were you doing at that time?"
- Lawyer: "How many times have you committed suicide?"
- Witness: "Four times."
- Lawyer: "Do you have any children or anything of that kind?"
- Lawyer: "She had three children, right?"
- Witness: "Yes."
- Lawyer: "How many were boys?"
- Witness: "None."
- Lawyer: "Were there girls?"
- Lawyer: "You don't know what it was, and you didn't know what it looked like, but can you describe it?"
- Lawyer: "You say that the stairs went down to the basement?"
- Witness: "Yes."
- Lawyer: "And these stairs, did they go up also?"
- Lawyer: "Have you lived in this town all your life?"
- Witness: "Not yet."
- Lawyer: (realizing he was on the verge of asking a stupid question) "Your Honor, I'd like to strike the next question."
- Lawyer: "Do you recall approximately the time that you examined the body of Mr. Eddington at the Rose Chapel?"
- Witness: "It was in the evening. The autopsy started about 8:30pm."
- Lawyer: "And Mr. Eddington was dead at the time, is that correct?"
- Lawyer: "What is your brother-in-law's name?"
- Witness: "Borofkin."
- Lawyer: "What's his first name?"
- Witness: "I can't remember."
- Lawyer: "He's been your brother-in-law for years, and you can't remember his first name?"
- Witness: "No. I tell you, I'm too excited." (rising and pointing to his brother-in-law) "Nathan, for heaven's sake, tell them your first name!"
- Lawyer: "Did you ever stay all night with this man in New York?"
- Witness: "I refuse to answer that question.
- Lawyer: "Did you ever stay all night with this man in Chicago?"
- Witness: "I refuse to answer that question.
- Lawyer: "Did you ever stay all night with this man in Miami?"
- Witness: "No."
- Lawyer: "Doctor, did you say he was shot in the woods?"
- Witness: "No, I said he was shot in the lumbar region."
- Lawyer: "What is your marital status?"
- Witness: "Fair."
- Lawyer: "Are you married?"
- Witness: "No, I'm divorced."
- Lawyer: "And what did your husband do before you divorced him?"
- Witness: "A lot of things I didn't know about."
- Lawyer: "And who is this person you are speaking of?"
- Witness: "My ex-widow said it.
- Lawyer: "How did you happen to go to Dr. Cherney?"
- Witness: "Well, a gal down the road had had several of her children by Dr. Cherney and said he was really good."
- Lawyer: "Doctor, how many autopsies have you performed on dead people?"
- Witness: "All my autopsies have been performed on dead people."
- Lawyer: "Were you acquainted with the deceased?"
- Witness: "Yes sir."
- Lawyer: "Before or after he died?"
- Lawyer: "Mrs. Jones, is your appearance this morning pursuant to a deposition notice which I sent to your attorney?"
- Witness: "No. This is how I dress when I go to work."
- The Court: "Now, as we begin, I must ask you to banish all present information and prejudice from your minds, if you have any."
- Lawyer: "Did he pick the dog up by the ears?"
- Witness: "No."
- Lawyer: "What was he doing with the dog's ears?"
- Witness: "Picking them up in the air."
- Lawyer: "Where was the dog at this time?"
- Witness: "Attached to the ears."
- Lawyer: "When he went, had you gone and had she, if she wanted to and were able, for the time being excluding all the restraints on her not to go, gone also, would he have brought you, meaning you and she, with him to the station?"
- Other Lawyer: "Objection. That question should be taken out and shot."
- Lawyer: "And lastly, Gary, all your responses must be oral. Ok? What school do you go to?"
- Witness: "Oral."
- Lawyer: "How old are you?"
- Witness: "Oral."
- Lawyer: "What is your relationship with the plaintiff?"
- Witness: "She is my daughter."
- Lawyer: "Was she your daughter on February 13, 1979?"
- Lawyer: "Now, you have investigated other murders, have you not, where there was a victim?"
- Lawyer: "Now, doctor, isn't it true that when a person dies in his sleep, in most cases he just passes quietly away and doesn't know anything about it until the next morning?"
- Lawyer: "And what did he do then?"
- Witness: "He came home, and next morning he was dead."
- Lawyer: "So when he woke up the next morning he was dead?"
- Lawyer: "Did you tell your lawyer that your husband had offered you indignities?"
- Witness: "He didn't offer me nothing. He just said I could have the furniture."
- Lawyer: "So, after the anesthesia, when you came out of it, what did you observe with respect to your scalp?"
- Witness: "I didn't see my scalp the whole time I was in the hospital."
- Lawyer: "It was covered?"
- Witness: "Yes, bandaged."
- Lawyer: "Then, later on...what did you see?"
- Witness: "I had a skin graft. My whole buttocks and leg were removed and put on top of my head."
- Lawyer: "Could you see him from where you were standing?"
- Witness: "I could see his head."
- Lawyer: "And where was his head?"
- Witness: "Just above his shoulders."
- Lawyer: "Do you drink when you're on duty?"
- Witness: "I don't drink when I'm on duty, unless I come on duty drunk."
- Lawyer: "Any suggestions as to what prevented this from being a murder trial instead of an attempted murder trial?"
- Witness: "The victim lived."
- Lawyer: "The truth of the matter is that you were not an unbiased, objective witness, isn't it? You too were shot in the fracas."
- Witness: "No, sir. I was shot midway between the fracas and the naval."
- Lawyer: "Officer, what led you to believe the defendant was under the influence?"
- Witness: "Because he was argumentary, and he couldn't pronunciate his words."
- Back to Things People Said.
Tuesday, July 28, 2015
The End Is Where We Start.
“What we call
the beginning is often the end. And to make an end is to make a beginning. The
end is where we start from” T.S. Eliot
Endings and Beginnings
I have been thinking about life's endings and beginnings, large
and small, that create opportunities for us to align who we are with what we
do.
We experience endings and beginnings every day, such as day
turning into night; the changing seasons; and our creation and discarding of
new ideas. Much has been said in the past about the cyclical nature of life.
Our endings may be small or large, from physical location change
to the death of the loved ones. There are all kinds of ending: happy endings, such as waving goodbye to the
couple leaving for their honeymoon; bittersweet endings, such as a child
leaving his or her childhood home; and exhilarating endings, such as college
graduation.
Of course with all endings comes the possibility of new
beginnings: of new places, new careers, new ideas and new or enriched
relationships. The duration between endings and new beginnings can be a matter
of minutes or it could be years. This time, between ending and a new beginning can
be a taxing one; it certainly is a time of uncertainty. It is a time of
transition.
Ending are not always planned, sometimes life just surprises us
with it. Some of us have experienced major endings as destabilizing as they
thrust us into unknown territory. We are shaken, taken by surprise, possibly
fearful of what will happen next and initially unable to see options for moving
forward.
Most of us have experienced ending one way or the other since
childhood, yet, when a loss or ending occurs; it is not easy to see the silver
lining – especially at that moment. Often, we need some time and distance to
work through (understand) the ending before we can identify what we may have
learned from the situation and move forward.
My experience is that when an ending and loss come into our
lives, we are able to access resources of strength and courage that we did not
even know that we had. We find resiliency and capabilities that surprise even
ourselves. Often though, we don’t even recognize it until the period of loss
has passed. It is amazing how we readjust our lives with clearer focus on what
has meaning and value for us. Many of us
find balance, support, even joy in a very difficult time of our lives. We
discover deeper sense of who we are and what each moment of life means to us
and we shift our priorities as the situation of our lives changes. We
concentrate in what is important to us.
Regardless of how our culture have a hard time dealing with
endings and regardless of it’s expectation of us to move forward as soon as
possible, regardless of us wanting to pretend outwardly and show the world that
we have moved on (even though we are stuck inside,) we cannot move forward
until we stop, take the time to mourn and to learn from the experience. The end
is where we start.
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