Andy

My dearest love Andrew,

Oh Andy, what can I say about you? How can I express the void you left in my heart? If wishes can come true, I would have kept you in my life for a very long time.

Andy, I miss you very much. I would not be lying if I say the whole of Manhattan reminds me of  you. I know we did not cover all of the island but not from lack of trying. I miss your voice, your laughter, your advice, your humor, most of all your unconditional love.

I met you exactly one month after my father passed away and I don't think I would ever forget that. I thought you were an angel of the Lord. You listened to me. Even though you had never met my father you cried with me. You held me until my body stop shaking. You told me to call you day or night if I need you for anything...anything at all you said. And, I knew you meant it. You told me that you can be a substitute father and made me laugh by saying you are willing to discipline me as well. You comforted me. That day at the church, I really felt you were an answer to my prayer.

Regardless of our age difference, we got along real well. Over the years, not only we got to know each other but to love each other deeply. We laughed, we cried, we joked, etc. You went out of your way to make my life comfortable.

The day I told you about my test result, you went down on your knees in the middle of fifth avenue and thank God for me. You had an amazing faith and trust in God. How can I forget that?  You have been my comforter and my adviser. Even when you were sick and weak, you came to the city to say goodbye. Who would do that?

I wish I was there with you when you took your last breath. When you said you don't want me there, I respected your wish. But, sometimes I wish I did not. I knew why you did not want me there and I love you even more for it. I am glad you were surrounded by your children when you passed away.

I kept in touch with Liam. It is funny how he and I reconnected with each other after so many years. All those years  that you and I have known each other, I never knew he was your son. God works in mysterious ways. Everything is revealed in it's proper time. Liam gives me updates on the rest of the family very often. Donny has two more girls, you would have spoiled them rotten if you were still around. Did I ever tell you how much I enjoyed being your only daughter. It still makes me smile, whenever I thought of the expression on your sons faces the day you introduced me as your daughter. Every time I talk to Daclen, he tells me that he never believed it, but you and I know better. Andy, I love you and miss you so much. Goodbye my friend until we meet again in Heaven.