The saga of 'Mr. You are beautiful!

” Too much of a good thing can be wonderful.” —Mae West

Well, I spent more time with 'Mr. you are #beautiful.' Still, no glaring character flaws. No obnoxious habits so far. I know, we are getting to know each other and both of us are on our best behavior. I am sure some flaws would come out later on for both of us, but, so far, there is none. If you are like me, you might be saying now, she is 'in lust' she cannot see him for who he is. Maybe.You could  be right.

I have fallen in #lust before, I know what that is. It goes like this, we have barely met yet we cannot keep our hands off each other. Things progress quickly and soon we are intertwined. After a few encounters, we realize we do not really know the person. One of us steps back and says, “We need to slow down.” Or we realize we’re further along than we want to be, so we break up — or just vanish.

I am used to people calling or emailing every day, especially if it seems like there is a mutual attraction. In his case, perhaps I was impatient. After all, in the unstable first few weeks of a potential relationship, there is uncertainty. I wanted some sign he was still interested. Call it insecurity. I try to rein it in, but unfortunately, it leaks out despite my best attempts. Did not I tell you, when  I am with someone I #care about all my fears and insecurities come out of the wood work.  I became a crazy person as I struggle through dramas to avoid facing things I had never wanted to look at. Being with the person triggered my hidden rage, my feeling of worthlessness, and my most manipulative and controlling behavior. I did not want to call him — it seemed so #desperate. After all, didn't they say in 'Love Smart' and in "He’s Just Not That into You," that men don’t like to be chased, and they will call if they are thinking about you and want to talk to you. So, if he wanted to talk to me, I assumed he would have called me.

Lo and behold, then out of the blue, he called and apologized for not being in contact with me more regularly and that he would work on being better #communicator, especially when he is traveling. What a sweet, dear,  thoughtful, and #delightful man!!!!!!!!!